Hello August!

So what sup gals? It’s the first day of august today. That’s mean it’s bills time. Wushh. I have already pay my smart e-load earlier and more soon to come. Wow, being indepent is not an easy task. I don’t know if we can call this indepent but since I moved here in City of Angeles, I feel a lot of better but learn that life is not easy. I used to lived with someone ever since, I don’t pay any bills or anything expenses from the house but now I am the one who handle the work. I am now living with my own now for more than 10 months. But of course, I have financial support from my ex husband who helps me a lot from being indepent person. He gives me moolah to pay my rent, food expenses, and extra things that I want for my apartment. Many task I have learned from being indepent, there is a time that I am afraid that might someone knock our door (or break our door) in the middle of the night just to hostage us or just to steal things inside. I am sure I am not the only person who would think that much if you are living your own. Most of us would worried about that because now life is getting worse and worse. Many people we’re killed because of materials things or moolah. A lot of people starving due to lack of work or sometimes they will killed people just to get some moolah or eat food! It is very sad. I feel sorry for all people who starve as well for all people who we’re killed, like the massacre in angeles city pampanga just happened recently . This is what I am worried about. I don’t want to starved but I don’t want to get killed. I love my life, especially I have my daughter with me. My daughter is my inspiration. She is the great gift that god gave it to me. I don’t want her to grew up without me, I want her to stayed with me forever. You know being a mom is really a wonderful but yet it’s not easy (especially if you are first time mom!). There is a time that you feel uncomfortable (a bit nervous) or worried. But later on, you will feel better and learn how to be a good mom and give a good care to your child! Is a lot of work but it’s all worth it when you see them grewing up good! Sabi nga nila, madaling lunokin ang kanin pero mahirap idura. Just like being married, diba? Once you get married, mahirap na pag nagbunga na. Tama b? Yay, did I make sense ba? Ihh.. ewan. Basta to all single out there, enjoy your life being single muna then pag sawa kana maging single – edi mag asawa kana. He-he. Atleast you’d enjoy your being single life diba? Unlike other, they get pregnant so early then they will end up with bad married (or broken family). It’s always good to make sure that you are ready to all task that god gave to you once your married or once you have a family. Let’s say, isa na ako duon. Di ko na handle lahat nang pagsubok sa previous married ‘ko so now I end up with a broken a family. It’s hard you know and it’s more hard for kids. Syempre they need both parents, kalinga nang dalawang magulang. Other effect kids. I’ve seen some broken family that their kids end up with a bad attitude. Well, I will make sure that my daughter will not become as one of those. I will make sure that she will grew up with a full of love and respect with parents. One problem I have with my daughter, she seems shy to speak english with peeps. I speak english to her but she response me with tagalog or kapampangan words. It’s very hard to teach her english because people around us talks tagalog or kapampangan langguage. She so very quite when I speak english to her, like pipi ba? I don’t know, any suggestion how can I teach her more english langguage? I am worried that her dad cannot talk to her, she can understand but she is not responding. Please advices! Your advice is really appreciate! Thank you in advances!